Let's call today: 'Wednesday, 9 February 2005'
pirategirl
wrote in the notebook:
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The phone rings in the dead of night.
Hi, Ma? Yes its me. No, no I'm alright...
I know it's been awhile since we spoke heart to heart
but I been thinking tonight and it's a little bit hard
to say after so long that I'm not sorry at all.
Yes, that's right, I'm not. Not sorry at all.
No, Ma. Wake up please, you're not listening to me.
I said I'm not, hear me? Not. I just had to be free.
I know I broke your heart when I'd promised I wouldnt,
but I was young, mother, then and I thought that I couldnt.
Okay so I didnt leave in the best of moods.
I admit that. I know, it mustnt have been good.
But you had him, your son, to lean on, to speak.
Ever since he was young, he's held you up, weak.
When I left I wanted to take him too,
If not to save him then at least to hurt you.
And while I was out, getting drunk, getting sold
The torment you gave him put his own life on hold.
When you fell down, he took your hand.
He carried you though he could barely stand.
And what reward then, did you give him sweet mother?
But to punish one child for the sake of another.
I'm not coming home, Ma. Not now. Not ever.
The way that you think will scar me forever.
And while I cry for the baggage you gave me to stack.
I'm cowardly enough to run on, not looking back.
Sure, I'm a hypocrite, I could save him and more.
But I've no nerve left to come back to your door.
Yep I'm a big girl now, how far I've come
to turn, drop my head, tuck tail and run.
Ma? Are you there? Are you even still awake?
I guess it was silly calling so late.
And maybe this would've worked better if I'd chosen to write
Or if I'd dialled your number...
...before I started talking tonite.
strike that.
reverse it.
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