main banner
the pirate girl
Juste un peu de silence.

black, white
and the shades of grey in between

photo's by me :)


This is just a blog for thoughts - songs that are speaking to me, pics from where I've been today, or projects on the drawing board.
Just a random outlet.
An area of free association.
Comments welcome - though anon's are discouraged please.
Enjoy your stay & come again.
Please note: The content of this blog does not represent the views of any organisations to which I belong.

pirate folder
the pirate girl

coeval happenings
reading: Moab is my Washpot - Stephen Fry
listening to: Napalm & Silly Putty - George Carlin
travelling/staying in: SA, NSW & Vic - depending when you catch me

Let's call today: 'Friday, 7 April 2006'

pirategirl wrote in the notebook:

You know what, I think I'm finally going to have myself a good year. And if it turns otherwise, I'm going to still try and keep it so, 'cos I'm enjoying it.

Before long, 2004 just became too much for me, and I designated '05 to be my good year, but halfway through I was kicked in the face by people again. So far I've been on my first lengthy streak of feeling great for the first time since... this time last year?? Yeah, just before Equus, that was in May last year wasn't it?
Holy flying fedora - that's quite a run. I don't really include being abroad, different situations etc, so really let's say 8 or 9 months. I guess I really mean in myself and in my current environment etc etc and blah blah blah.

For a few weeks now, despite having no luck jobwise yet, and having a few people raining shit on me in particular, for some reason the glass has remained half-full. Which is odd for me.
I'm not a half-empty person either really, but I'm cynical enough and try my hardest to view things realistically and subjectively (admittedly I fail to do so at times) for everything to eventually get on top of me.

But returning to this humble land of mine after some months and having several thousand kilometres between me and my problems, I've come back very 'over' everything. As usual my music has been helping me through some patches; the other night I played a song I wrote about this time last year and only now fully can I sing it with true conviction. The music must be doing something for me, I've been composing on average a song a week since returning from the US.

I feel like a better person.

Things and people and situations that used to dictate how I'd feel for the day are shrugged off easier now.
I've been keeping fit with the new equipment my folks bought, working out close to every day.
People that I would have slapped or scorned for even trying to talk to me before are now getting not only attention and tolerance, but apologies for my undeserved hostility to them.
Attention from interested parties, though still surprising to me, are welcomed as I gradually realise that hey I'm kinda spunky sometimes after all - no doubt being the cool Aussie chick with the sexy accent in America helped that part.
Eventually something will come up in terms of employment that I will enjoy doing at least a bit more than being a herb farmer.
And also, eventually I'll be moving and can finally tie up that last loose thread hanging from my independence, and I can be a little further from the grip of psychological warfare that this house is clouded in.

I feel stronger, calmer and more attractive than I have for... as long as I can remember - probably the first time in recent years.

So this is just a rant and I know that, and I'm sorry that I've nothing terribly more interesting to write about, but that's pretty much what I've been noticing lately.
And I'm not complaining.
I don't know where this all came from, but it's quite welcome, believe me.

I've recently discovered that lately I attract, and am attracted to, flirty heartbreakers who just want to use me when it suits them.
My new attitude to it all?
*shrug* oh well, to hell with you too.

9:31 pm | Post A Comment... >


This page is powered by Blogger. Isn't yours?

blogs, projects & other links:
under construction after gremlins attacked this sidebar

mine sweeper
zombie skittles
under my umbrella
jason b standing
hyperbole and a half
you are not a photographer
geek with curves

untitled experimental dating site outlet blog
captain's log
the scribe
the NEW amount
big unit studios

20 things i learned about browsers & the web
that's not cool - anti online/textual harassment support

music, art & inspiration:
avaste music
ben folds
hawksley workman
missy higgins
wandering minstrels
xavier rudd
more coming - goddam gremlins ruined my linksbar!!!! >.<
This is a Flickr badge showing public photos from a real life girl. Make your own badge here.

Free Web Counters thanks to
::i love to love and love to be loved::

eBay Sniper

This blog is now 7 years old!!


  • December 2002
  • January 2004
  • April 2004
  • May 2004
  • June 2004
  • July 2004
  • August 2004
  • September 2004
  • October 2004
  • November 2004
  • December 2004
  • January 2005
  • February 2005
  • March 2005
  • April 2005
  • May 2005
  • June 2005
  • July 2005
  • August 2005
  • September 2005
  • October 2005
  • November 2005
  • December 2005
  • January 2006
  • February 2006
  • March 2006
  • April 2006
  • May 2006
  • June 2006
  • July 2006
  • August 2006
  • September 2006
  • October 2006
  • November 2006
  • December 2006
  • January 2007
  • February 2007
  • March 2007
  • April 2007
  • May 2007
  • June 2007
  • July 2007
  • August 2007
  • September 2007
  • October 2007
  • November 2007
  • December 2007
  • February 2008
  • March 2008
  • April 2008
  • May 2008
  • July 2008
  • August 2008
  • September 2008
  • October 2008
  • November 2008
  • December 2008
  • January 2009
  • February 2009
  • March 2009
  • June 2009
  • August 2009
  • September 2009
  • November 2009
  • December 2009
  • January 2010
  • February 2010
  • March 2010
  • April 2010
  • May 2010
  • June 2010
  • August 2010
  • September 2010
  • October 2010
  • December 2010
  • January 2011
  • February 2011
  • March 2011
  • April 2011
  • May 2011
  • June 2011
  • July 2011
  • November 2012