Let's call today: 'Thursday, 27 April 2006'
wrote in the notebook:
Ember bought me a Breciated Jasper stone today while I was at her Earth Magic stand.
I was pouring my heart out to her and I wandered over to them and my hand instantly went to one and I held it for a while. Thinking it was pretty, I glanced at the label to see what it was, but didn't really take much notice.
I helped her pick out the stones that were in the wrong place and put them in their right compartments and match the labels up while I talked, and realised the frustration building in me when I said 'I think I need one for healing, where's a healing one? I saw it somewhere here...'
I searched the labels and ended up back at the Breciated Jasper, where I'd originally been drawn, which read "Healing and dissipating negativity". I picked it up again and looked at her.
"I'll buy it for you, you need it."
What I've been getting is rather uncalled for, unwarranted, and unwelcome. I don't deserve it, I haven't done anything wrong, so they can stop treating me like I've run them over with my car.
I don't understand, why hate me just for being me? When simply being me is all they ever liked about me?
I don't get them sometimes.
I'm trying not to let things like this wreck my happy streak... but I guess I had to come down sometime. I'm guessing my lengthy cold is just wearing me down.
I'm not crashing tho. I'm determined not to.
Hear me out there?
I'm not crashing just because of you, you are so so so not worth it.
My life is still going well and it'll take a hell of a lot more than your moods to wreck that.
An upside is that Ben just came for a brief visit after work, so I got cuddles. And I bought a new top tonite. Pink... but still boyish hehehe
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